Emotions are as diverse as the flavors in your kitchen pantry. Some emotions will fill the heart with love, while others will extend it's boundaries.
Unexpected teachers often show up at the right moment to teach important life lessons. One particular year, a sinsonte (mockingbird), came into my life to teach me how to deal with a lifetime of trapped anger.
If you don't know mockingbirds, they sing at night, and switch to a different tune every 10-15 seconds. It's beyond difficult to drift into a rhythmic sleep when the tune isn't very rhythmic. Needless to say, I was not very happy with the bird at the start of our relationship.
During this time, I was also dealing with a severe insomnia. And, insomnia is tough! The brain thinks, "I am not safe. Therefore, I will remain awake and on high alert!" And the body thinks, "I am exhausted. Therefore, I need rest in order to keep us safe!" The Mind and Body are in a state of conflict.
Frustration, anger, guilt, rage, sadness, and overwhelm were some of the emotions that I was experiencing.
A part of me wished that I could get rid of that bird, in order to drift into blissful sleep. But, it wasn't the birds fault that I was dealing with overwhelm. My feelings were actually a result of my own reality not matching my ideal reality. My "problems" were rooted in me.
It took a lot of love and patience, but I finally learned how to co-exist with the bird. The bird was going to sing, what was I going to do? How was I going to react? Once I accepted that the bird was a semi-permanent resident of my back yard, I adjusted my behavior, so that we could coexist in harmony.
The universal lesson here was that I could not change the environment around me, but I could change myself. The only place I had power was in my reaction to the circumstances. And, the more I accepted reality, the more I found creative solutions that offered me healing.
I learned that it was ok to feel angry, but what I did with that anger was a different story. So, I chose to raise to a higher vibrational energy, and this allowed me to return to a loving state. I either fell sleep before the bird began it's song, or I used ear plugs. These were simple solutions that allowed me to be a human, and the mockingbird to be a bird.
Now, I look at the mockingbird and smile, as I am reminded of the great lesson it taught me.
I invite you to use this technique with people in your life who cause you distress. Once you note and accept the persons behavior, what could you do to return to a more loving state? This could involve using communication, setting boundaries, adjusting your behavior, etc. There are many choices in a situation like this, and choice is power. Connect your choices to love, and your inner wisdom will guide you in the right direction.
Amor y Canela